Last year I felt my path was NOT healing myself that it was time to let go and leave this life. I was obviously wrong. I feel it was more fear and emotional turmoil.

Courage is the ability to do something that frightens one. I did not feel I had the courage to live and sought refuge in death. I keep debating living but it is so apparent to me that I must learn to live. Not just skim the surface of life like I was. Embrace life no matter what I am handed. But these are just words, thoughts. Been here done that. Need to embrace the negative thoughts, embrace my fears and the resistance I have to living.

My Path, you ask…it is to go back to healing the mind and body…not give my body up. I believe (from a spiritual perspective) I will otherwise just have to come back and do it again.

– Nicole

P.S. This is day 3 of my water fast: I feel more fatigue, bowel disruptions, cold. Blood sugars yesterday were going up to 16 mmol/l (288 mg/dl). Today the BS have dropped to 8-9 mmol/l or 144-162 mg/dl. Swelling in body is a lot better, arthritis better–swelling gone down in hands. Foot with ulcer that I apply orin packs on daily still struggling. But it is only day 3 and I have not fasted since February.