“A moot point is a fact that doesn’t matter because it’s not relevant to the current situation” – Grammarly Blog

Food Addiction is a very wily creature. It is not like you can abstain from food forever – as you can with cigarettes, cocaine, or alcohol. I haven’t smoked or drank alcohol for over 25 years. Never did cocaine. However, I must eat, and I sometimes emotionally eat.

I have had a food addiction of some kind for many years. I have struggled in and out of it. Seeking counselling and different programs. They maybe helped for a bit but I always fell back into the sinkhole – my resistance to caring for myself.

The binging has been the worse part because it effects the blood sugars… the anorexia was only fasting. Labels can be so disgruntling but sometimes easier to get certain ideas across.

I have not told many people and those few I have really didn’t want to believe it. It is hard to reconcile the part that is disgusted, ashamed and doesn’t want to do it with the part that does. I do not want to comply with my Ego around this anymore.

“The Most Courageous Decision you can make each day is to be in a Good Mood”– Voltaire

I want to wake up each morning and take the oath of being Courageous before whatever effects me that day: Be it my eating disorder or facing people who shame me or another complication of diabetes and dialysis.

Maybe all of these labels are a moot point.

I just need to be present in my life.

“Faith is the art of holding on to things in spite of your changing moods and circumstances.” — C.S. Lewis

— Nicole

P.S. Today’s day 4 of my water fast. My blood sugars were between 5.3 mmol/l (95.4 mg/dl) and 10 mmol/l (180 mg/dl). I often have the feeling I have a low BS. I think it is fatigue–I don’t sleep very well even with all the EMF precautions we have put in place. No headache, toxic feeling, bowel seems to be empty, have been losing weight. I have been doing a few more saunas, drinking nettle tea as a diuretic with distilled water, and dialysis today.